Thats why I dont write here ever

Cuz every time I write here is just how fucked up my life is full of twist and turn just like a cheesy reality tv. Today I almost just turn around and dont go to work but I didnt want to fuck up my coworker leaving them short handed on a friday, now tomorrow I might cuz they have enough ppl , but im debating if i should, my sanity or responsible`mmmmmmm ahhhhhh going nuts.

Amy and I mmmm I dont think is gonna happen now cuz something stupid i did yes me again fucked up something good huh I never cease to amaze myself. In the process I lost her trust and i lost mine on hers so its really fucked up but i just dont know what the fuck to do, im so confused but i do really like her but i dunno if stuff will go on a good way wish it did she did grew on me a lot like a highschoolish thing wich feels good and right and... now im going in circles babling so enough bout that. =/

About the lost friend J surprisingly enough my fault lol, If u read this a do apologize and im really sorry for being an asshole to you the thing is that i felt offended because of what u said, and again it wasnt flirting cuz its pointless on a computer the stuff i said to you like the words that pissed u off I say them to all my friends who are girls just ask martha, with u i never know when is a serious issue or u getting pissed for real, remember the time of the mood swing thing? its kinda same thing i neeeever know, so again sorry for being the asshole that i was to you and the stupid message i sent to u on aol i do regret that one. again sorry

I found out today that the second cook its gonna transfer to another place so who knows ill get the tittle and the money **crossing fingers***

AHHHHHH I dont want to go to work tomorrow